Monday, June 28, 2010

Forgiveness

Yesterday at Church our wonderful Pastor spoke on forgiveness. I won't lie I wasn't feeling well, I didn't want to go but I now see why all of the excuses were popping up. Anyways, despite all of the reasons to not go I went. And I am SO glad I did. I think everyone can use a good preaching on Forgiveness.
Here are some notes I had:

When someone does something to offend you, it isn't NATURAL to forgive them

When you refuse to forgive someone, you are the one in bondage

Too often what we do in human nature is keep score; And we feel a way we can punish them is by withholding forgiveness from them. As long as we don't forgive then you have the person in bondage.

Have you extended grace to the person who has sinned against you. We live supernatural lives, not natural lives

If we don't forgive we think it will make them behave. We make them try to earn our forgiveness. They then wonder what they can do and struggle with that.

Romans says: "Do you not know that it is the goodness of God to lead them to repentance"
Proverbs : By mercy truth and iniquity are purged.

We don't forgive cause as long as we don't forgive it keeps the focus on that person and keeps the focus off me. Before you refuse to forgive someone you need to remember you aren't perfect either. Have you never sinned against them? Basically it is not talking about what you ahve done but how htey have wronged you.

If you want to be free you must forgive

Ephesians 4 "Let all bitterness and wrath and bitter speaking be put away from you with all malice.
Bitterness- is an addiction to anger.

STOP TREATING OTHERS AS IF THEY AHVE NO VALUE OR PLACE IN YOUR LIFE.
"And be ye kind one to another forgiving one another just as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you."
Forgiving one another. ARe you willing to forgive?

Why should it be done? Even for God, through Christ's sake hath forgiven you.

Yes, I was challenged by that. So, here I am practicing what I have heard preached. :)

Goodbye, i'll find you soon.

I would like to say before you start reading I can't stop sneezing, not small sneezes. Vicious, hard core, if-you-don't-sneeze-right-you'll-blow-your-ear-drums sneezes.
I'm not truly expecting anyone to understand how I feel right now unless you have been to this glorious, Spirit-filled place I am writing about this morning. For the past 8 years I have gone/experienced/studied at/worked at a place called Snowbird Wilderness Outfitters. The only way I can describe it is: Unlike any other camp you have EVER been to. The staff, completely sold out; yet not your "average" Christian Camp Staff. Camp is just...unable to be described with words. No, i'm not being over dramatic. Unless you go, you will never understand. NEVER.
It isn't Snowbird that made me grow in my walk with Christ, it was God in the midst of them that allowed my heart to be open to Christ in ways it would have never, ever been any other place. I was a camper for 6 years. I then did a semester exploring God's creation through NC,GA, AL, and Honduras; immersed in Scripture and put in situations that require trust.
I had the opportunity last summer to work at this "camp on steroids" and it. was. awesome.
I really don't have words, it's either that it's 4:00 a.m or it's just that great. :) (Latter for sure :P)
Anyways, back to the reason for this post. This is the only way I can put it, and yes, some of it is redundant.
Reality finally set in that i'm not at camp. I was in the first group of 30 to go to SWO 8 years ago. I have NEVER been a summer without camp for as long as I can remember.
It's not just the "I always go, so I should be going" it's so much bigger than that. From 7th grade onward that is the place where God changed my life. That's where I met God, and continued to have intimate dates with Him. That's where my courtship began. It's like i'm taking a "Break" from my love. Not camp, but like i'm moving away from my favorite romantic spot with my love. We are still close but i'm saying goodbye to a part of my heart too.
Camper, Old Schooler, Staff. As cheesy as it sounds, that's where I let God rescue me. Let Him capture my heart and break the hard edges. That's where I let Him use me with reckless abandon.

I know what to compare it to, sending your love, absolute with out a doubt love off to war. You don't know if your relationship will ever be the same. You've prepared for it for weeks, even months knowing the time would come; you thought it would be okay. Then it is there, and they get on the bus and drive away. Sure, you will get to experience it again. It's just never the same. And your heart breaks.
Yes, i'll be there this weekend; but I don't know hardly any of the staff this year..and well, i'm different. Friendships are different. I'm so different. It's a good thing, but you know...sometimes college is way hard. I love my life, and my God. I don't regret the decisions that had to be made this summer. Sometimes God's plans are just hard to swallow. Although i'm positive it will all make sense someday.

Next post will be on Pastor's message tonight. And hopefully I will stop sneezing by then.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

We are young, but we are NOT silent.

I am passionate. I am passionate for my generation.

There are lies that have been spread, and some truths used as ammo to wound us as a whole.

According to these lies we are:

Unreachable, helpless, incapable, rude, angry, selfish, disrespectful, and will never see a revival.

I am passionate and broken because I know that this is not true, at least not for a good amount of us.


Dear generations before us, yes, we are a broken generation and their are people that seem to be suffering from all of these problems listed. But, hopeless we are not. To say that the chance of a revival in my generation is impossible, is to say that our God is not big enough. I don’t know what God you are in a relationship with but MY God is big enough.

Yes, we are hurt. We have been selfish, rude and disrespectful. Well, some of us, but not all of us.

You forget about those of us who have given hours to our Church in the nursery, with the youth, and spent even more hours volunteering at the nursing home, gathering supplies for those effected by hurricanes,or helping at the homeless shelter.

The unfortunate truth is that the people that were missed in your generation had children that are being missed in my generation. At this point in the history of the Church if a child is not reached with the gospel and establishes what they believe by the age of 12 there is a 98% chance they will never, ever believe.

Don’t get me wrong, you are not completely to blame, and I am not bashing you because I love your generation and I respect your generation. You have lived more life than I have and probably have acquired much more wisdom than I. But, please do not point your finger at my generation.


I have heard numerous times that we should be happy in our own skin and not look to the media for what size we should be, what we should wear, ect. But, I ask this question where should we look to beauty when there are not very many godly, respectable Christians defining what beauty is. What do I mean you ask? Modesty is understandable, it is defined in Scripture that we should not cause a brother to stumble; it is just ignorance if we ignore that. But, beauty, size.. where do we find this? Yes, I firmly believe that God creates everyone perfect; but we look and see husbands leaving their wives for younger women they have been having a relationship with for years. I see families separating because they “fell out of love”. What now? I know what you may be thinking, no, it is NOT from people that aren’t saved. It is people in ministry, YOUR generation. If we should love the way we look, “being healthy doesn’t have to be a size two” then why are you telling your daughters you felt the best being a size two during your eating disorder in high school, and why are you looking at younger women pass by while your little boy stands and watches everything you do; and why are you cheating on your wife or husband? I am not naive I believe marriage is hard. But, what happened to those vows? Do you really question why our view of marriage, love, sex, and beauty is so tainted? We are watching you. And it may not even be our parents, mine and the other adults I am close to, and respect have had godly, loving relationships for 25 years +; but it only takes a few other ones to make the doubts deep inside seem realistic. What if I get wrinkles, and can’t lose weight after I have kids someday; will my husband leave me too? Help your generation and see their needs for godly marriages and godly marital counseling before you only focus on talking about my friends being single parents. They are broken and searching for the missing detail called: “Godly Marriage and Relationships”. And yes, we do need help understanding what that means, but in an honest, loving way.


Each year over 400,000 college age students ranging in ages from 18-25 attend Passion Conferences all over the world. In Atlanta, GA college students raised over a MILLION dollars for causes globally. Why? because my generation is PASSIONATE about change, they are broken over the hurt in this world. Maybe it would help to take a look back at the economy in January 2010, it wasn’t so strong was it? So bad economy + students whose luxury food is ramen noodles that come in a cup should = everything you say about us. But Economy+ poor students x Passion for the gospel= 1,000,000.00 for Christ.


Yes, I see a messed up generation, but where are 400,000 of people your age going that is like passion? We are lost, but so is your generation. And don’t get me wrong, I'm not saying it's your fault but we learn from our elders. So, a good deal of responsibility falls on those who we should be looking at. So, what is the generation before us going to do to help us? Like I said before I know so many adults that I love and cherish that HAVE done a good job. But, why are some still preaching about us and not to us? Tell us what you want us to do because we have been sitting here in Church begging for the opportunity to change diapers, clean up after communion, pass out bulletins, and rake the yard of that older lady who cannot make it to Church. We want to know that you WANT us to help!


Dear Church, you see a generation full of messed up people doomed for hell. I see a generation that can be changed by the overwhelming power and love of Jesus Christ. You have wisdom we need, you have jobs we cannot begin to fill; you have done much and much thanks should be given. But, preaching that my generation is helpless doing nothing to save it absolutely breaks my heart. Yes, for some reason we think that Facebook is a real alternative to face-to-face communication, and that people need to know every single detail of our day via Twitter. But, you have to hand it to us that we can keep in contact with people around the world more effectively; and when your child or grandchild taught you texting it opened up a new world. No longer do you have to leave a performance to tell your husband where the mustard is; or tell your wife that it is only a leaf caught in the air filter and her car is still safe to drive. Did you ever imagine touch screen computers? Admit it right now, even if you don’t understand technology, it is impressive.



I might have a sharp tone to my writing today but that is because I am passionate. I have a God who is capable and yes, if no one else is with me I will change the world myself. Is it scary? absolutely terrifying. I watch E! and CNN, the world does not take kindly to those in opposition of the flesh. But, I don’t live my life to please the ruler of sin, but the King of Kings. So, generations full of people that I respect and love, when we say that we are passionate about something are you just going to tell us it is crazy because, well, you have seen the rest of us and we cannot do it.Or are you going to see, there are people that are sinful, but redeemed and so passionate to do more. Because to be honest I don't need anyone one else that let us because we are "young" and don't know what we are talking about. Yes, being responsible with money is important; yes, it probably will be hard. Yes, college is very important. Think back to when you were 20, what did you miss out on because older people were telling you the logical thing to do? We need your input, but more importantly we need your encouragement so that we can be and do all that we were called to do.


I think it’s time to stop being logical, and start being passionate about Christ. It was not logical for the disciples to leave their jobs and families to follow after Christ, what they did was based on the faith that the man called “Jesus” had something greater in store for their lives than they could ever imagine.

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor, he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound; to give them beauty for ashes, a garment of praise for morning. That they may be called oaks of righteousness. The planting of the Lord, that he may be glorified. They shall build up the ancient ruins; they shall raise up the former devastations; they shall repair the ruined cities, the devastations of many generations. I will greatly rejoice in the Lord; for my soul shall exult in my God, for he has clothed me with the garments of salvation”.
Whew. I feel better now.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

"Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.

He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom
and broke away their chains.

Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for men,

for he breaks down gates of bronze
and cuts through bars of iron"

Psalm 107:13-16

I read these incredible verses, and now this song is stuck in my head:

"Break my heart for what breaks yours, everything I am for your kingdom come..."

I think today is going to be a great day.